the king of herbs

Second coming or are we all home going, return to source or new gifts all knowing. I could feel the anguish from within the womb, but seeds must be planted before they can bloom. In the midday sun on summer solstice day, I realised it was you but why before didn’t you say. John the Baptist, wash away my sins, forced in from outside, oh those thin skins. Sunburnt shoulders, the weight of the world, but how to be the change, deep thoughts they swirled. Misunderstood for from another origin I arrived, breached within but head first I still dived. Cheerful demeanor when in the Sun I play, but sadness soon rises when behind closed doors I stay.

Head on a platter the price some must pay, speaking your truth can get in darkness’ way. But some are forerunners with mission to fulfil, against all odds, service to higher will. I must decrease so that he may increase, like the sun’s rays and new life to lease. But it takes compassion and deep humility, in a time of such egoic hostility. So let the light shine in and the shadows fall out, cleansed by sacred water in this period of drought.

Whilst working with the Holy Spirit a dark demon came, forced himself upon me, quite the crying shame. Pushing in such sadness, attempts to dim my light, a few months in recovery returning things to right. But what doesn’t kill you only makes your stronger, helped by the Sun, when the days grew longer. Welcome sunrise and to sunset farewell, aligning to the Sun, such stories to tell. But that moment where the Sun kisses the horizon, the Water becomes still and true peace arrives in. No anxious thoughts, but true prophets See, rite of baptism, true human be. Look deeper still into the Waters so clear, the divine mother line we should hold so dear. Immaculate conception and to conceive beyond possibility, oh the faithful purity found in fertility.

These prophets into this world who were born, came here with a mission to which they were sworn. But the womb that was chosen to carry their human form, to the frequency of Holy Spirit surely must first conform. But beyond the constraint of linear time, some are born in for higher frequencies to climb. To clear contaminants from this Holy stream, devotees to the greatest dream.

This detoxification is but a purification, setting the scene for deeper identification. The story now shines brighter, it’s clearer to see, memories resurface, as to who you’re called to be. Yes you’re writing your lifestory but it’s also already been written, the book is within you its pages have been hidden. A new chapter awaits, the life where you held the most light, it’s now yours to maintain through the darkest of night.

For it’s the human being, who to this world brings change, but the physical vessel can be wounded through unholy exchange. Stay close to your Self when the Fire of summer invites you to expand, stay true to the connection of where you really stand.

So to the spirit of Saint John’s Wort on midsummer’s day, inviting your sunlight for inside to now stay. Your flower head in oil turns blood red in the sun, on skin or within, magical healing to be done.

These are my own insights, but a great beauty of life is that of perspective, so how might others respond to the spirit of st johns wort. How might they perceive it through their six senses. And the light that shines brightest in your tunnel of lives, it’s from here you might find your greatest gift now arrives.

I am Elif, I began my Earth journey in the north of Turkey to a religious father and a liberal mother.

Growing up with two different value sets, especially my father being the authority in the house and restricting my teenage life with overprotection, made me a total rebel. I questioned everything about religion, relationships, traditions, dogmas and sought freedom from home as soon as possible. I decided to not take anyone as my role model and to create my own path that makes sense to me, since a very early age. I would call myself a pantheist, as I found a deep admiration for the beauty of nature, especially the sky, Sun and Moon. They were the symbols of divinity to my heart. My favorite summer camp memory from my teens is those nights, after everyone fell asleep, I would listen to my favorite music from my walkman and stargaze in wonder and yearning for my soul's home, knowing it was somewhere out there.

Since those early teen years, I have always wondered how it would be to visit far galaxies and extraterrestrial beings. I figured that it was possibly easier to explore foreign cultures- and also the freedom seeker in me was very loud. So, I chose a nomadic lifestyle until settling in Malaga, Spain in 2023.

I have been a seeker and life long learner since I know myself. My spiritual journey began to transform into a lifestyle after I lost my mother and my father in the space of 2 years, at the age 24 and 26. That was the time I went through big life changes. I started to meditate, experienced burnouts, got interested in wellbeing, holistic nutrition and plant based diets; as well as emotional intelligence and therapy work. All of these interests made the foundations of my deep healing journey that I fully dived in with the pandemic.

With the pandemic I registered for a personal growth platform, that was when the real life transform began for me. I built a community, guiding meditations and sharing circles; became a chakradance facilitator, facilitated dancing meditations, and started to receive my gifts slowly.

Fast forward, my spiritual journey deepened as I got to know myself, and learned to love myself on deeper, deeper layers through endless healing work.

At the end of 2022, my healing journey brought me the gift of connecting with the rainbow spirit in this lifetime. I gave birth to my channelled spiritual poetry & AI art project “Spirit of the Rainbow”. I was pulled towards psychedelic art, colors, and downloads of wisdom would come through. I felt I was on a blissful golden wave, life was magically unfolding and I was witnessing miracles, thriving and connecting with beautiful people through my instagram channel. This journey brought my attention into psychedelic therapy and plant medicine, and opened my mind to the idea that if it would come to my path I would say yes.

In 2023, as I moved to Malaga, Spain with my partner, our paths crossed with various medicine spirits. That was the time my deep release of the unprocessed grief began with settling in one place after many years of nomad lifestyle. As I felt there were more similarities between me and my father despite our values, I started to feel more connected to my country. Freedom as a primer theme of my life changed its meaning from “doing anything whenever I want” into being in love with life unconditionally, regardless of the circumstances. Also, I called in my full creative gift to see it with clarity, as it seemed like I could not stick with anything for more than a few years and it was hard to trust myself fully. The answers started to unfold as I asked the questions. As I grounded, I became very sensitive to the body and how the energy moves through it.

Towards 2025, I was at a point of over-indulgence into philosophy of spirituality on a more intellectual level. Our friend group was a perfect place to have endless conversations about God and the Universe and our insights around all of it, but I was more interested in bringing it from the mind/intellect, more and deeper into the body and soul. So I set the intention of integration, whatever is in the mind, make it a breathing, vibrating experience on all levels of my life. I began Kundalini practices. This was also the time I applied to Plantally to participate in healing sessions, in the Winter Solstice.

Before Andy’s invitation reached me, I was going through a part of this integration process. I asked the question of what my service to others was supposed to be, and how I could do it in trust, instead of anxiety and burnout. I received downloads of manifestation and vibration shifting tools, methods, book ideas overflowing in my mind.

I asked help from God to ground all my ideas. To get into balance in my own life to be a living, breathing example of the wisdom I received. And to give me the confidence to be able to make this into an offering.

Shortly after, I began a Youtube channel where I shared my creative journey and insights on forest walks…and I also began painting on paper, after many years of doing only digital design. This was the beginning of my answers to my integration and embodiment prayer, at the same time where my journey with the Saint John’s wort began.

On the day of the Summer Solstice, I had “another” painful period that became almost the default for me for the last 3 years. It is more gastrointestinal inflammation than a classic period pain. My digestion stops and I cannot eat or continue my life in any way, I just need to rest and hope for the best.

In acceptance of this condition, I sat on meditation to call in healing. What I felt was the presence of the Sun filling in my energy body and all distorted energy burning like paper into this Sun. Then I saw a visual of the sun shining inside the pupil of an eye. The visual was so beautiful, I had to draw it. And just after that I noticed Andy’s invitation for me to participate in a session with Saint John’s wort.

As I had no idea about neither Saint John (only knew it was celebrated in Spain as San Juan with the beginning of the Summer) nor Saint John’s wort, curiously I checked. As I saw there was a deep connection to the Solstice, Sun, and trust in Divine, it was a full body yes for me.

As the healing sharings began I felt a deep peace and observation taking over the place of any particle or even potential of reaction and anxiety. Curious, joyful, trusting days passed until the concentrated meditation. Intuition was deepened.

During the meditation I felt there was an energetical surgery taking place in the body, an activation on cellular level was happening. I saw that this was the time of my rebirth, I saw my essence waking up from a dream of all these lifetimes, being in deep grief and sadness for having to let them go, but also knowing a part of me always wanted to wake up from the dream. As I accepted all of my experience with unconditional love, everything dissolved and the journey was over.

For me this was just the beginning of my transformation. My energy began to purify, my body aligning into a diet of only alive foods, I remembered my Kundalini practice was interrupted and I reconnected with my daily embodiment practices.

I reconnected with the Divine Mother, Divine Father and dreamt of being feather light, floating in the air in so much joy with a friend of my father in law, Jan (John in English).

Reconnection with my body deepened the energy sensitivity and intuition. The magnetic field feels like it went through a full renovation. I feel a deeper connection to my uterus and she is helping me to receive life fully, instead of holding onto indigestion of the anxiety, which is alchemised into an everyday deepening trust.

I still receive the answers to my questions, but the transformation I am going through is like never before. Anything that is not in alignment with my manifestations becomes intensely noticeable, I have no choice but to heal the blocks. A constant purification continues and guides me. Attachments and anxiety around financial instability is dissolving. I noticed the spirit is helping me practice every step of my manifestation tools. It is almost midwifing my rebirth, and making me the firsthand testimonial to my channeled wisdom. I call on Saint John to help me with my journey of tuning the world into the heart’s expansion, and to bring more unconditional love and compassion to all beings on the planet.