when the dragon and the damsel fly

Hello I’m Susie. I am an intuitive guide and a mentor to many as they awaken to their true nature and explore their potential using simple practices rooted in the ancient wisdom traditions. I create retreats in beautiful, natural environments and online programs including regular meditations and spirit cafe sessions.

As this process began I felt like my curiosity led the way, I see myself as a timeless traveler, intuitive guide and conscious explorer.

My life has taken me along many routes, searching for something, a deeper connection and fulfillment. Eventually it led me to one of my teachers, Dr Deepak Chopra in California. It was whilst on retreat, away from the day to day distractions that my worldview shifted, this experience served as a catalyst, awakening me to discover my soul's longing and the deep driving desire to express my true nature, and explore my dharma. Shortly after this I closed my design business and committed to the teachers path, graduating as a Vedic educator in yoga, meditation and Ayurveda. The years that followed included extensive travels throughout India and Bhutan. I volunteered and created many retreats; guiding groups on spiritual adventures across the Himalayan foothills, trekking, meditating in sacred caves, exploring practices rooted in the ancient, eastern wisdom traditions.

I am fascinated by our capacity as humans to experience expanded states of consciousness through meditation practices and spending quiet time in nature. I have been experimenting with current concepts around time and what happens when we let go of the construct of linear time. I have been teaching and writing about personal experiences I have had with precognition, retro causality, Extra Sensory Perception and intuition, this led me to the science and consciousness conference in the UK. It was here that I first heard about Plantally from a previous participant - I was instantly curious to learn more.

What I hadn't expected that week was getting a message from a dear friend of mine who wished to dissolve our friendship as I hadn't shown up for her during a recent challenging time in her life. I had frozen and withdrawn from her. For most of the week on a personal level I experienced a whole spectrum of feelings from shock to sadness. As I walked the labyrinth I sensed that I had to respect her wishes. I prayed for guidance and wondered if the non local, remote plant medicine I had heard of earlier in the week might help me. Incredibly a very short time after simply having that thought - my prayer was answered as I was invited to participate in the next Plantally session, I was actually moved to tears when the offer came along, it was such a blessing, and felt like an instant yes for me. Perfect timing.

Having no idea of what the actual plant was or what this non local medicine might be, I was intrigued as the process began and I became aware of subtle shifts happening within me. Initially I felt engulfed in a heavy energy and as the process evolved I experienced what felt like something had released on a very subtle level. As it happened, on the first day of the process I was walking in a forest and a whole world began to open up in front of me, in an expanded state, nature came alive and I felt it whispering to me. It was wonderful to experience, I felt so at ease and grounded and I feel this created a reassuring, solid foundation for patterns to arise within me. Over the following days I noticed themes and memories as they arose that I had distanced myself and disconnected from which were linked to childhood trauma. Frozen, numb layers of fear based memories and beliefs started to gradually peel away. I was assured by the gentle approach and felt safe and held to explore.

I could see how layers upon layers had formed to ensure my survival. I also sensed the weight of those layers, and that the moment had arrived to release and let them go. I had a strong sense of retro-causality around the trauma of being kidnapped aged five. I sensed that; "I" now - the wise older woman that I am today was the voice that whispered instructions to the tiny younger "self" - I went back to the past, from the future to guide my younger self, as a little girl and tell her how to escape from this strangers house. My future depended on my survival that day and how now my future is beckoning me again to free my mind and heal the wounds inflicted by this very traumatic event on my psyche. This imprint has been underlying many of my fears, frozen in time, carefully preserved for the spontaneous right moment when I get to revisit that memory. This is my take on this subjective, non local experience. I felt like I was being supported during this process to expand my mind some more, and this created a subtle shift in my perspective. As I write this paragraph I get a sense that I am now rewriting that paragraph of my history from a grounded, more expanded part that has been reconnected.

During the more concentrated meditation to music. I wasn't sure what to expect as my journey to that point had taken me deeper than I ever expected, I was a little apprehensive as it began. Initially feeling uncomfortable with very cold feet and soon I settled in and surrendered, eventually I was able to relax. I saw and sensed visual impressions representing the two sides to all things, the contrasts of opposites, light and dark, and how both are one and the same, whichever way you choose to look at them. Everything is connected.

All participants were invited to share a word as the session began that seemed to relate to their lead up to the main session, mine was “connected”.

It was fascinating for me that this experience concluded with me entering a majestic woodland, given that this whole process had begun weeks ago on a sunny afternoon at Sherwood forest. In the final session I witnessed lots of beautiful details, majestic light in a grounded setting as I was guided to a clearing. I seemed to know that I had been given this gift to experience the magic and mystical, the unseen beauty in the details, the patterns, and see the bigger picture. It felt like I was being given an invisible treasure to help me let go of the past. I could see much more from this broader perspective and it felt as if those younger frozen parts had been reconnected. I drifted off and came back right at the end feeling happy and relaxed.

After the Plantally experience, when I discovered that Dragonfly was our trusted guide, that made a lot of sense to me. The gift I received was the shift in my perspective and acceptance of what had happened, I felt I returned to the present moment reconnected with the lost innocence of my childhood. (The day we were taken by the stranger had started out with me as a five year old little girl going to the local forest for a picnic with a group of young children.)

Life brings us the teachers, the friends, the medicine, the tools, the experiences and the lessons we need for our souls' evolution at the exact right moment, when we are ready. I felt like I was ready to have this experience when the session came along, I felt it deeply. My friend's original message had shaken me and I immediately felt the support when Dragonfly showed up. I have developed unshakeable trust and courage along my journey, I was ready and willing to look deeper when the opportunity presented itself. This experience pushed me way out of my comfort zone, however I feel much stronger as a result, like a part of me has grown up since this process began. My perspective has shifted significantly and I am much more accepting of the things that I cannot change, I feel immense gratitude for this opportunity, and I am excited to see where it leads.

Thank you Andy and everyone who took part in the session, the willingness and courage of others really helped me to stick with it - there were certainly times I wanted to bolt!